When we brought our youngest child home from the hospital, life was complete chaos for several weeks. To be honest…most days, it still is. But there’s something about that craziness that’s comforting. Juggling a newborn in one arm and a toddler in the other, while counseling my older two through the latest drama, I’d stop myself to breathe it all in. Because, one day, they’ll be gone. They already grow and change so fast I can hardly keep up. As much as the tantrums and the messes may stress me out some days, they’re evidence that I have the one “job” I’ve always dreamed of. And, if I never held another title, I’d be ok with that.
Each of my babies has changed me in different ways. With each child, I’ve found myself relaxing more into the role God has called me to and giving up the struggle to compete with other moms. The more time I spent worrying if I was good enough, the less time I was spending on what really matters. So, when I was doing this session and Stephanie asked me, “How you do this with four kids?” the first thing that came to mind is that I don’t. Not on my own anyway. I just do my best to love on them and to weather the storms. From a spilled bowl of Cheerios to a gut-wrenching medical diagnosis, all I know to do is lean into God’s unchanging strength and grace. To rely on The One who created my children to show me how to raise them.
Watching this family welcome baby Silas into the chaos was a sweetly familiar experience that reminded me that all of us parents are just doing our best. Scott and Stephanie, in the midst of all of their changes and challenges, are doing wonderfully with these beautiful children and I hope that when they look at these photos, they’ll find staring back at them a reminder that their love and His grace is more than enough.
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